The Diary of a mad Lesbian Women

im back

Wed, 03 May 2006 06:44:12 GMT

Whats up everybody I havent been on in a hot minute but a friend on downelink...for those of you who dont know it is a online gay lesbian site...anywho she said she got an account so I thought Id write. I finished my first semester of college not to well sadly but we all get one mess up rite? I failed to classes so I lost my scholorship but can get it back by the end of fall if I do well in the nest 2 semesters( summer and fall). Anyway my homegirl heard one of my old raps I found and she says I should get back at it but I dont know if I will I am working on a pride song I am hoping if I decide to record or somthing my homeboy will let me use his beats..u can checkout his website for his label at www.bg-ent.com. Ok well just wanted everyone to know I am alive!

im back

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 21:47:52 GMT

it has been a quick minute since i wrote but not too much has been going on. i hurt my finger the other nightjbecause i was trying to pull up my blinds to decorate my window for homecoming and they fell down and cut my finger.j we did can art today which is where you build something with cans. my girl from texas came to see me and it was cool, just to let yall know when a stranger calls was not a good movie and you get very very tired of hearing the phone ring. hope every one is doing well

411

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 23:02:41 GMT

Hey it has been a quick minute since I wrote in here. School is fine classes are boring but o well. I went to a dance this weekend and I am going to a basketball game tonight. I am meetin lots of people so preety much I am having a good time.

blah

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 21:20:11 GMT

Not much has been going on. I played pool today which was fun. I actually won today. I won three games and my homegirl won 2. School isnt too exciting but it was fried chicken thursday which is always good. other than that i just miss my girlfriend. i wont get to talk to her till tommorrow. tears

old ashley

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 02:57:51 GMT

I am finally over her. My friends was tellin her about my new girl and she said she was mad and they said y u care you said u cant stand her then she said that she is jealous

none

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 02:50:28 GMT

I am bored. School is all good. I am talking to my bookie. I am happy. Life is good

contimplation

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 18:25:28 GMT

I was reading all my old entries and I just relized I havent been worried about ashley( old ashley) or what she is doing ever since I started talking to my new baby ( who ironically enough is also named ashley). maybbe I am finnaly over her

10 happy tears

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 18:11:53 GMT

Well me and my ex cool again and she said I could be the kids god momma stil, BUY the best news of all is I have a new girlfriend!!!!!!!!!! I am sooooooooooooooooooo happy. She is real tight and is sweet. My bookie! Well that is all

Sick

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 23:20:10 GMT

I just found out that my ex thinks she is pregnant. It hurts but it shouldnt because I should be over her but I am not. God love is a bitch. On a happier note school is going fine. It is the second week here and now I have a room to myself. Joy!!!! I havent even had much homework yet so I am happy. Then there is some girl that has been staring me down and it is getting on my nerves and I want to say something to her but I am not going to. That is all for now

none

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 19:49:31 GMT

Hey. I went to help out at the preschool today. It was alright the kids were real sweet. I will probably start going every week. Other than that nothing has been happening

First day

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 03:02:07 GMT

Well my first class was intro to psyc. which was kind of boring but that is basically cuz he just went over the syllabus. Then I had college algebra and Teaching students with severe and profound disablilites. All my professors seem cool though. I just got back from the basketball game. My butt is tired but other than that it is all good. I have no class tommorow but I am probably going to go help with a preschool that is located on the campus. Apparently my ex is talking junk about me but I said I dont really care. I still love her but I am like I am down here in Americus GA in college and she is barely a sophmore and 18 years old. I mean I love her but she need to grow the hell up. Off that subject. Everything is good here. I made some friends and the food was good today (fried chicken) Well thats all. bye

I'm Back

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 22:37:06 GMT

HEy everyone. I am finnaly back! I am now in college and signed up for classes today and I start tommorow! Joy. lol It is not as boring as I thought it would be. I am mad though because my phone does not work and my internet is not hooked up yet and I have to wait for some man to call me to get it hooked up but that cant happen with out a phone so yeah I am going to try to get that ASAP other than that life is doing okay. I still miss Ashley which is unfortunate but owell. I might get to "teach" some pre-K kids because they have a pre-K school in the college which is neat and I dont have class on Friday which rocks so I guess it is all going good. The food isnt too bad either. It could be better but I cant complain. WEll that is all for now. BYE

Tears

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 17:11:32 GMT

My damn school district blocked this website so I cant write daily anymore which really sucks so I can only write like onece a week if that. I was all depressed yesterday and wanted to write but couldnt. I was just thinking about all the bad things tht had happened to me in my life and so I was real upset. My baby (ex) asked what was wrong and sat with me. It hurts sooooo much to know that I love her with all my heart and every time I try to move on I cant and she doesnt really care about me. I know all I do is talk about her and I am sorry but she is all that is ever on my mind. I am making a remix to I'm Sprung. So far it goes like this....

I'm sprung over Ashley she got me doin things I never do I'm deep in love I'm tellin you. She got me givin her money. bossin me around like she run me i put up wit her cheating cussing me out and her hitting me. but i still want her as my main lady. i know that sounds fuckin crazy cuz i never gonna have her to her my feelings do not matter......

to be continued.

bordeom

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 22:49:57 GMT

Blah Algebra three sucks. That girl I started talking to that I said was not gonna work wanted me to call her again so I did and she didnt have nothin to say. I really dont call people cuz I dont like talkin on the phone much but if someone aaask me to I figure they wanna talk so I will but i guess she did not want to talk. That chica is in 11th and is in calculus and I am in 12th and stuck in damn algebra three. neways i think i am now over my craving for a baby thing. I want some chocolate and some chicken good bye.

poem

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 20:38:04 GMT

Anger
I am crying and you ask me why so I tell you about the anger I have inside then the anger turns into fear, the fear of what I might do when I am real mad, the fear that I will go overboard to me little cuts arent bad but every time I get angry it gets worse, I fear for my sister what if I cut too deepand end up dead instead of hurting and feeling better? what will she do? help me I am scared of my anger.

lol

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 17:15:52 GMT

I am pissed cuz I have been trying to register for students with disabilites and I cant figure out how and all they told me ws to go to this website and I will know what to do but I dont. Well that is all.

frusturating

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 16:24:54 GMT

okay so there is this boy here sweating me to suck him up and have sex with him and i said i dont think so and then i think he told his homeboy i was going to or something cuz when i went in to his room to borrow something from the teacher they was just smiling and speaking to me and i want to say shut the fuk up and get out my face i dont do boys no more holla. uggghhhhh i hate guys sometimes.

none

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 16:16:02 GMT

Wow another boring day in the neighboor hood. Well I am mad because if it had not been for me being behind in math I would be starting my first job today but now I might not even get it because I could not start today. Oh it makes me mad. O well. I bought friends breakfast this morning so I feel good I guess. I am tired of life though. I just dont see the damn purpose but I suppose every one feels that way sometimes.

Better

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 15:45:56 GMT

Well I am no longer sick and no longer talking to the other girl. She wasnt the one for me. I move out in 57 days. I finnaly got a debit card. I only have like 22 days left of school. I am doing great. Well for the case of the ex she is now acting real live childish!!!! Her girl is having some problems which I will not talk about since I am not supposed to know about it. Well anyways my ex has a habit of cutting or burning herself so I asked her to do me a favor and not to that and she said the only people she would do favors for are Tasha (her girl) and their kids. So I told her that they wouldnt want her to do that and I was just concerned for her then she blew up talking about I dont give a damn about her and her kids and I can burn in hell and shit like that. So I told her if I did not still care for her I would not even talk to her cuz she treated me wrong as hell if she didnt forget and then she said I was stupid for caring for her cuz she does not give a damn about me and she dont want me talking to her so I stopped talking to her and now she is acting even more childish by trying to talk shit about me so I am like shit until she grows up as far as I am concerned I do not know her (unless she gets herself into a big mess then I will actually pay attention to her). I mean this girl is 17 with two kids and is sitiing here acting like a child. It is soooo frusturating that is why I go for older people. Well that is all I guess. Over all I am doing fine. *kisses*

sick of everything

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 20:05:45 GMT

I am sick. Then my ex loves to talk shit so I am just like fuck it. I aint talking to her no more!!!!! Then the other shawty trippin so I am gonna remain single for the rest of my time in the ATH I think because people here are so damn immature and childish!!!!!!!!

none

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 17:49:37 GMT

I am getting worse now cuz now I am coughing too. Then I went to the dentist yesterday and that hygenist was fuckin up my mouth. Man I was hurting like hell! Then my ex is saying how she cant stand me but whatever she is going through a bunch of fuckedup shit with her girl. Going on to my girl. She said she needs to talk to me about something and I am scared it is something bad but we will see. That is all for now. I hate being sick

tears

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 14:50:47 GMT

My girl did not write me back. My ex is acting real live stupid. I am sick. Life sucks.

AAAHHHHH!!!!!

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 15:19:35 GMT

Okay so I talked to the girl that wants to go with me this weekend. So we all good. Then today my ex started saying lets go back together and I would say yes except for the reason that is behind it. She is only saying becuase now I got money and she is money hungary and I still got feelings for her no doubt but I am not gonna let myself get used by her anymore. I told her I still care for her and definitley still would love to have a sex life with her but I do not think I can handle the hurt she gives me. On a happier note, my PFT's went up and I lost weight. Actually that last little bit is not good but anyways I still look good and my breasts are finnaly growing Yeah!! Wow I have issues. Goodbye

happy happy joy joy

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 20:41:28 GMT

I am in a decent mood. I told my homeboy who is gay I would go with him if I was a man and he looked shocked. He said no body likes him. I was like WHAT!!!!!!!!! This guy is gorgeous. No offense to anybody who reads this but when I say a white person is fine then that is saying something because I almost never do. But o well I just finished a scholorship essay so we will see how that goes.

none

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 16:54:29 GMT

Shit I am now bored and have nothing to do and my ex is in here and it is harder than I thought to be able to control myself but whatever.